


I used to wear black. It was my favorite color. So stylish. Very chic. Went anywhere and went with anything and any occasion.
I used to dine out often. At stylish restaurants. Country Clubs. Private parties. Stay out late. Attend a new opening.
I used to vacation. Lovely, far away places that were warm, with sand beaches. And lovely, ice cold drinks – not with little umbrellas. Those are for whimps. My icy cold drinks need many cubes because the Irish Whiskey melted them promptly.
I used to own stylish cars. Sedans that gleamed. Sports cars that moved at lusty speeds. Bright colors. And I also bought cars – in Black – how daring. Shiny, clean, sparkling interiors that smelled ever so slightly of light powder or citrus.
Not now. Now anymore.
I have a farm. And animals. Oh my gawd, do I have animals. And a farm, that comes complete with leaves, dust, dirt and just plain crap. Yes, Crap. Poop. Manure. Compost. Whatever you want to call it – but it’s a compete picture. The life cycle of the creatures, the supplies and food products that keep them going.
My clothes are now all neutral color. My carpets and/or tile floors are all taupe (which translates to = DIRT color). My car and truck might be considered a minor agricultural project, because I cannot be sure exactly WHAT that smell could be. And what IS that in the corner.
My vacations are the few times a week that someone comes to help with the night chores. My social moments now consist of a quick dinner with a friend who understands about the stray hairs of unknown origin on my *taupe* clothing. Or the ‘Eau d’Pony’ that may waft into the room with me……… Or the straggling piece of hair that seems to escape from my clip I had thought anchored it out of the way.
I do still indulge in the Irish Whiskey. Late at nite when the only sounds are the wildlife. The night birds. The coyote packs – tracking and hunting thru the woods. The crashing sounds of the prey trying to escape it’s predator. When the horses are munching, or sighing and – yes – snoring. When the dogs are chasing their buddies in their sleep and their legs are moving a million miles an hour while they sleep, drooling on the floor.
That’s when I stare at the sky and talk with the moon and stars. Yeah, I can actually see them out here. Then I go back to my bed and try to move the fat dog over so I can find my spot on the edge.
I used to wear black.
I really don’t miss it, at all.